Should i feel disheartened?

it has been 2 days in a row i didnt sleep well.i mean not even bit of good.yest slept at six in the morning.why on earth did i torture myself?no i didnt but it is a responsibility.i see it as a task.A task which i need to complete to fulfill my desires.this morning,went into the class with confusion/tiring mode.body just wavered when wind blew,like i couldnt stand probably.just afraid i might lose consciousness suddenly,as i didnt really have meal yest night,just a burger.which reminds me of today's lunch too.i missed it. =( quiz was bad and i feel bad.bad of plagiarizing though i DID read.is honesty that important?or self conscience?but how is it when everyone in the class copies?would it be another story?i feel guilty deep inside because i know i shouldnt cheat and i read,but just one chapter out of three i revised.It was not my intention and i feel stupid why dont i cheat when everyone is doing unethically.i feel like a mutt.well,its not like i didnt wanna read up all.just i had another test.and i spent basically every minute on the subject.the test was good,if only i was to be given more time!i had lotsa points in my head but it was just too late to apply."you have to write what it could be the last",my lecturer cried but i didnt give a damn until she said,"i gonna tear your paper off if you still keep on writing".thats harsh,isnt it?yeah FUCK YOU is wad i wanted to voice.but no matter how is the score,i should feel blessed.i know i will work harder next time.another test tomorrow.feel a little relieved somehow.so,yeah guess i needa stay up late again.friday's no longer a joy.parents comin tomoro and im going home.i should deserve some bliss afterall.